ctrl+alt+delete

okay, I'm not really into cliche's so I'm going to try to make this sound a uncorny as I possibly can.

When you have an issue with your computer; fucked it up in some fashion, it freezes on you.  When that occurs, what is the most likely thing you do? You restart your computer, cross your fingers, and hope for the best right? Yeah, well... I went into several situations; fucked them up royally and sure enough EVERYONE froze.  My attempt to restart these programs, if you will, has been fruitless to say the least.  I talked to one person, who wagered that my integrity has been compromised. Another won't talk to me really at all... and of course other the last has a slow chip and the rebooting has been under par.

I can't help but blame myself. For everything. I allowed things that would normally not blow me over to hurt me and deceive my thinking overall on people.  I hurt myself AFTER someone else hurt me... that's a epic fail. I'm sitting here, realizing my faults, and ask that those I pushed away to come back. I'm telling you I know I was with the shit. I know I was tripping... I failed you as a friend. But you know where my heart has always been. I ask that you give me the chance to proceed as your friend.  I don't want to make up the time apart. I don't think that's the right thing to do.  I've learned that making it up is only done to cover up what one has done wrong. Please. I don't want that. I want to always remember that THIS place is where there is no love, no companionship, no you.  I don't want that. I hope you recognize my plea. I'm not saying that I am normal completely, but I'm getting there. I should have been better for you and myself.

So... I hit my ctrl+alt+delete and I am scanning for these programs to reboot. I hope the diagnostics and repairs help. I really adore each part of my cpu... the programs, security, and protocols; I don't think my cpu will function properly without them.

Yep, still corny. I tried. But you get the point, right?